Self-conscious Lolita??

Last night I was on the internet, like always, looking around and desiced that I wanted to start sewing a loli-nightgown. I couldn’t find the fabric I had bought in my room (just a little insight on my life. I was kicked out and now I’m living with some family; a total life change… someone cleans my room, cooks and does my laundry. It’s nice to be pampered but I’m really starting to hate it >.<). So going upstairs to where all my stuff is (I sleep down stairs in a tiny room, with a huge bed lol.) to see if it’s up there. I look into my plastic tote where I keep my sewing stuff and my Lolita cords (sadly only three), and wa-la there she was. But what caught my eye was a one of my favorite JSKs, an off brand Bunny Doll pattern in mint. I pulled it out and decided to try it on, since it had been a while. Just pulling my shirt off, I slipped it on with out a blouse. My sweats looked really nice with it XD, so I took them off and put a petticoat on. I slipped the headband in my hair and paraded around for a bit. But when I thought I heard someone coming up the stairs I freaked and quickly got changed. My heart was pounding and I let a sigh of relief out. Then it hit me… Am I a self-conscious Lolita?

I’m really in pickle. I don’t know if I’m a self-conscious Lolita… or not.  To be a Lolita, to me, means you don’t care about what people think about you. You are free to dress how you want and not think twice about a comment or a look that someone gives you. I know a few people who take comments to the heart and never walk out in Lolita again. But am I one of them? I’ve dressed out in Lolita three times (since my Lolita ‘career’ a year ago). I never really got any rude comments about how I looked, I’ve had quite the opposite (my favorite is when I went to see Disney on Ice and a little boy pointed at me and said to his dad “Look! A pretty doll!” Oh he was so cute! ^///^ ). But here is my dilemma… For me it’s easy to brush off some stranger’s comment, but is it to hard for me to brush off someone’s I know?

What do you think? Ever been in the same boat I am?

Here is our loli-challenge:

What made you want to become a Lolita? Was it a friend or a dress you liked? An anime convention or something you found on the internet?

For me: It was an internet mishap. I was looking for a mini top hat for a dance at school and came across a tutorial on LJ (Livejournal.com). That’s how my Lolita ‘career’ got started.

 I would love to hear your comments! Have a great Loli-day!